My journey of change started on Aug. 4, 2007. I looked in the mirror and declared: “ The next 10 years of my life will not be the same as the last 10 years.” In that decade, I had had two children, changed jobs four times and failed to maintain a relationship with my children’s father. I was thankful that the ups and downs of life had not taken their toll out of my body; I still looked pretty good after two pregnancies and a whole lot of breastfeeding and sleep depreciation. I was however tired. Tired of being sick and tired of how my life was playing out. Something had to give or my brain was going to explode. I decided that very day, which happened to be my birthday, to pick myself up, dust myself off and put on a new attitude. No more feeling sorry for myself! No more playing the victim! I had been blaming everyone else for what had gone wrong in my life; my mother; my ex…etc. But that day, looking in the mirror I realized that despite it all I was still standing. In that moment, I drew strength from the only source I knew could keep me going and carry me into a brighter tomorrow. God! Together he and I would make it through moment by moment.
My conversation with God went something like this: “If you help me to get over this wall… I will dedicate myself to helping other people pursue extraordinary lives.” Then I started praying. I began meditating and journaling daily. I found myself being drawn to people who were on the same spiritual path I was on. I developed a new appreciation for my new job as an H. D. Analyst. Helping people with their computer issues gave me great satisfaction. Leaving them empowered and less afraid of the tools they use every day to make a living; knowing that at least this one aggravation was no longer an issue for them gave me an empowering sense of purpose, and a reason to look past the sometimes aggressive and frankly rude phone personalities I’d encountered. I started going to the gym, watching my diet and reading self-help books. All of which set me on a path of transformation. Once I was trapped like a caterpillar in a cocoon, but I was emerging a beautiful butterfly. Before long, I started dating and then I declared I wanted to be in a serious relationship and maybe even, dare I say, married! Some days I would look in the mirror and ask, “Who are you?” And God would answer: “Someone who is not afraid to share themselves and be a testimony.”
If you are thinking about staging a comeback remember the following:
- Take responsibility for your life.
- Don’t be afraid to look at the reflection in the mirror and see what’s really there.
- Ground yourself in the source of your life; what or whoever that may be.
- Have faith you can manifest the things you want.
- Look at being whole in all areas of your life: mind, body and soul.
What I want to leave you with is that it takes courage to stage a comeback. You must start looking at life from a new perspective if you are going to produce different results. Going through the process takes time, perseverance, and patience. During the times of trouble develop your faith by leaning on God and trusting that he will provide for your every need. So don’t waste time worrying, trust and live!
With Love and Grace,
Fatima
