What does it mean to put yourself out there for the world to see?
To be vulnerable when your insides are screaming “Do not let them see us this way!. Put on the armor . Suck it up! And uh, don’t forget our ‘don’t mess with me or I will eat you alive’ face”... This was my life before I looked into the mirror one day and decided enough was enough. I searched my soul, desperate for away to renew my mind and change the impression my body was projecting, ; especially my facial expressions. I cried a lot of tears as I searched for the courage to express the true me, But I was firm about not running away or sweeping anything under the rug.
Facing my life head on was the only way to get out from under the weight that was holding me down. I began to seek the help of friends, family and professionals. I was grateful for the advice, however eventually I began to realise that the only person who could pull me out from under this weight was me… Once I came to that realization, I knew I’d found a new purpose for living.
I began by changing my limited beliefs and conquering my fears with the help of a therapist . I would never have said it out loud but I did not believe I was wanted, or loved, or desirable; I thought of myself as stupid and foolish and the ever present one that still persist, even now : Everything is my fault. Once I began to chip away at those mistaken ideas and made up notions I discovered myself to be a beautiful woman who deserved to be loved. This restored my faith and brought back lightness to my being.
Another step I took was clearing out the human cobwebs of people who did not belong in my environment. The expression ‘misery loves company’ was an appropriate description of the pool of people I found myself swimming with. Most of whom could not string two positive sentences together if their lives depended on it. Complaining was the order and topic of the day. So when I heard Motivational speaker Jim Rohn say “ We are the average of the five people we spend the most time with”. I asked myself if that was the person I wanted continue to be or I am going to create a shift in my environment. I began to attracted those who encouraged me; People who took me to a higher level of my existence, these are my true friends and have became my family.
Once you find passion and a purpose the world becomes an exciting place to live life out in the open for the world to see. A place where others can see you as the beautiful butterfly you are, free to enjoy every moment you breathe.
Blessings,
Fatima
